Ever watched the movie Enchanted? Michael, Conner, and I watched it for the first time last week and it was pretty cute. It’s about a princess who lived in an animated world and the mean witch banished her from the animated world into a horrible place known as “New york.” haha. That’s not the important part of the story at all.
The one thing I remember most in this movie was the super cute little girl that did not have a mom. She was a little girl that lived with her dad and never really got to experience things that little girls should experience. Things like pedicures, manicures, shopping, and girl talk. There was a scene in the movie where the Princess asked the little girl for help to find a dress for the ball so they go shopping and do all these things. The little girl responds to this event by saying, “So, is this what its like? Going shopping with your mother?” That’s where the tears happened for me!
Michael and I had a miscarriage over a year ago and this past month would of marked her birthday. I do pretty good not thinking about it--until I received a birthday card from Gerber saying “Happy 1st Birthday.” Remind me to hate Gerber Baby later. :) Things like this just bring memories flooding back from that place in time for me. Even though we did not know the sex of the baby-I always believed it was a girl. Call me silly but I just had a feeling. I know God knows the desires of my heart and to keep praying. But my heart remembers sometimes and there is a very distinct pain that comes from it. I get sad because I desire to do those things with my little girl one day. Things that some moms take for granted. I desire to play dress up, go shopping for cute clothes, and paint each other’s nails. I want to be able to buy her cabbage patch dolls, have tea parties, and braid her hair. This a desire of mine.
I am so blessed with my family. I thank God every day for what He has given me. And I love playing cars and trains, running around the backyard pretending I am an airplane, playing football and doing all these boyish things. I am so blessed. And I can’t wait to see how wonderful a big brother Conner will be to a little sister or brother. He has been learning from his big brother. God tells us, “Delight yourself in the LORD and he will give you the desires of your heart.” Psalm 37:4
No matter what your heart desires..know that God already knows what it is..and keep praying for that thing. In His time. All of us have so many passions and desires. God cares about them all. Take time to share them with Him.
Blessings and Love
Amanda
